It’s been a bit difficult overcoming the shame of letting this blog languish; particularly the trance journal. Hopefully, this post works towards correcting some of that. Despite my quietness, i’m still very much a slave owned by Domina Shelle Rivers. i wish W/we had more personal interactions as they tend to inflame my passion and obsession over being the best good girl i can be for my beautiful Queen Shelle. It’s likely partly my fault though; as, the more busy Domina seems, the less inclined i am to clamor for Her attention. i never want to be one more time burden on Her. Instead, i’d love to be someone who removed time burdens from Her.
i used to be afraid that i would simply drift further and further out of orbit without the magnetic pull generated by personal interactions. Thinking that one day soon, i would wake up in the morning with the realization that weeks had gone by unnoticed without listening to Domina Shelle’s heavenly voice. Admittedly, this did start to happen to the point that a week had gone by without me realizing that i hadn’t listened to Domina’s voice.
… i’m obsessing so heavily over this recording craving for the bliss trigger to be so deeply ingrained that a single utterance would shatter my mind in ecstasy.
– slave v
That all changed when i met Bliss – Radically Altered. i simply cannot put the recording down. Since Domina released it roughly a month ago, listening to Bliss – Radically Altered is the first thing I do to start my day, the last thing I do to end my day, my mid day work break when time permits, and the lullaby that loops through my ears as i sleep through the night. Try as i might, i simply can’t find the words on why i’m obsessing so heavily over this recording craving for the bliss trigger to be so deeply ingrained that a single utterance would shatter my mind in ecstasy. Adding fuel to the fire, Domina granted my wish by sending me a customized version of the recording that has consciously unknown background subliminals mixed in with my name. Not knowing the content of the sublimnals Domina added has only deepened the addiction to the recording.
If Bliss – Radically Altered is ying, then Tranquilized is yang. Tranquilized has only been released for a couple of days and it already has quite the pull over me. There’s a moment in the recording where Domina Shelle states “you will not cum…”. i cannot get this sentence out of my head. Domina has spoken it into my mind so many times today without listening to the recording. Please Domina please! Emblazon the phrase onto my mind alongside the bliss trigger!
i may not know much about what the future holds. i’m positive that both of these recordings will be a huge part of it. Tranquilized in the morning and night with Bliss – Radically Altered as the sleepy lullaby.